Recycled Air

Remember this post about the Bill Cunningham Show? The one with the weirdly edited video?  Well, they re-aired my show and an awesome friend was kind enough to get a copy for me! The new stuff begins about 5:45 in...

I made a thread over at Adisc mentioning my appearance and there was an overwhelming show of support, the love i've been shown by the community really keeps me positive. I responded to the posts the next day as I am always careful what to write on forums, I usually  write whatever the purple monkey dishwasher I want on my sites.  I'll be writing more on social dynamics, safety and necessary evils in the context of *B/DL forums. For now i'd like to share some of my responses to the thread & thoughts about the show, ABDL's in media etc, here's the post...

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"I was going to post this before I saw the show, but now is just as good. My friend is ridiculous, he was a second choice but did well to draw attention away from me, I needed a dissenting voice, my club-kid friend was avalialble, he was quite over the top and did well to bring up moot points.

So big hugs, thanks guise, its not a very good show, daytime trash, but I
hope that my positive message got through... quoting the National Coalition of Sexual Freedom helped I think.

The best advice I could give to a young kinky person would be to start your own blog, journal, vlog, whatever, and keep consistent. You'll find many people will drop-off and lose steam, staying with it gives you the time and meditative thought to express yourself clearer both when dealing with media and in your daily life. Realizing the effect of your words and actions on others is a profound experience, especially the humility of it. I look back on the last year of interviews i've done, as well as the reactions to them and occasionally i shake my head, thinking "i can't believe you actually said that". At times i've been arrogant, too bold, too aggressive, much of this comes from getting caught in the moment, and on one occasion doing an interview with a fierce hangover. Though I have some regrets in terms of ways i've represented myself, i'm still learning, I hope that others will learn alongside me.

Wanted to say that, but haven't found an outlet to. I look forward to some of the collaborate efforts i've gotten wind of coming out in the ageplay blogosphere, theres some great creatives making good, progressive content, like the (18+) Big Little Podcast. I really hope to see more fresh faces creating media (blogs, poems, short films, documentaries) about who they are and how they live. Be thoughtful with what you make but get out there and make it, even if you make it with your phone, greater stories have come from less.

Anyway, that's my thing, just wanted to say that. Thanks everyone!"

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***Naturally, one forum member plays "devils advocate" and brings a negative view to AB/DLs on TV, I responded shortly after with this...

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"I didn't make this thread to get into a conversation about different ageplayers on TV, because those threads often turn hurtful, negative. There will always be that extra little "we shouldn't be public about this" voice, but ABDL's in the media are going to happen regardless of our input, so why not focus on being shown in a positive light?

If you really want to stop AB's from appearing in the media, write Discovery networks (among other cable networks) and tell them to stop making TV shows about AB/DL people, write a handwritten letter even. Put as much time and effort into that as you did your post here, if you haven't already. I try not to mention how I have to deal with potential awkwardness of being publicily outed as an Ab + a transperson ::forever:: or how my extended family feels about this, I conciously made those sacrifices. They were minor compared to missing my chance to prevent some clown from going on TV and make a fool of themselves about something SUPER important to me, potentially causing a little cultural setback for the growing ABDL community. My Strange Addiction is a pretty popular show, where it could have been bad it was instead just ok. If I wasn't going to go on Bill Cunningham, they would have gotten a replacement like they did for the tanning girl. Knowing the integrity of the producers, it could have been bad.

Thanks again for all the kind comments, and though my activist/porn presence is getting stronger, my allure to the mainstream has gone down and i likely won't find myself doing any TV other than maybe The Soup, where i've been shown a bunch of times. I look forward to seeing what awesome new things are coming out, i know SyFy is doing something soon, as well as other stations. this is a big step for this *thing* we share and an oppurtinity to show that theres real, friendly, happy people inside these diapers."

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Those are my positive thoughts for the day, thanks for reading, more stuff soon! Transpride LA is this weekend and i'll be volunteering so if you're in the area, come to a workshop and support the community! Kate Bornstein and Maria Keisling are going to be there, i'm so excited <3 Hugs, love, more stuff soon! Laser went fine but i'm scruffy and awful right now, i get to shave tomorrow! Hooray for being a girl!

Final thought... Usually don't give up the refrences in post titles, but if you haven't heard The Postal Service, check their only album "Give Up", it is pure love. The Postal Service is Ben Gibbard from Death Cab for Cutie, producer Dntel and guest vocals from Jenny Lewis of the band Rilo Kiley, if that sounds familiar at all. Yes, this album is kinda played out on the indie scene but it still stays in rotation in my life, give it a listen <3